If I had to rate today it would be well below average. Like, a C- (for those non-American readers that’s a just-barely-passing grade).
I woke up today with a vaguely claustrophobic feeling of being stuck somewhere I didn’t want to be, and that sense of malaise has followed me all day. So today it’s hard to write, that’s when it’s important to write.
I’m half Japanese – I was actually born in Tokyo, where my mother’s family lives – and was raised with a strong sense of its culture. The Japanese tend to be a stoic people, and that stoicism has often served me well. There’s a fantastic Japanese phrase, しょうがない, shouganai, which means roughly “there’s no way”, and the very ambiguity of it leads to countless usages. And although it’s usually used in unpleasant situations, in many ways it has a neutral connotation, resigned but willing to work with the reality at hand.
Today I looked at the world and thought, shouganai, and went on with my day as best as I could. Whereas the Western temperament might shun any sense of hopelessness, the Japanese character is one that would accept it as a state of things and keep going despite it. As I said, stoic.
So, today, that’s all I’ve got for you. I’m in a rough spot but I’m willing to accept it (both the state of the world and my perception of it) and keep plodding forward both because of and in spite of it.
My question to you today: if “there’s no way”, how do you create a way?
And my task: spend at least a few hours doing some music review work, even if I don’t know when it will be performed (done!)
Hoping that tomorrow might find me in a better state.